Our resentments often shine a light on the hidden wounds within us. When we feel anger or frustration toward someone or something, it’s worth pausing to ask: Why? What is it within me that’s being stirred?
To examine the root of our reactions is the beginning of true healing. Why does this bother me? Why am I angry? Why am I afraid? And more deeply still—which version of myself feels threatened or exposed?
Understanding this brings more than just clarity. It leads us back to ourselves—and ultimately, to wholeness.
The Two Selves
As I continue to question my resentments, I find myself drawn deeper, asking: Are there two versions of me?
Am I just my personality—my thoughts, emotions, ego? Am I only the story I’ve crafted to explain who I am? I don’t believe so. I’ve come to see that there are two selves: one formed by pain, experience, and the need to protect; and another that has always been—unshaken, silent, and eternal.
Our personality is like the surface of the ocean—restless and reactive. But beneath it lies our true nature: vast, calm, and untouched. That deeper presence is the soul—the divine essence within us. It has no beginning, no end. It was never born—it simply is.
Our thinking, our ego, is not who we truly are. It is a mask—useful, but limited. In order to truly live, we must allow that false self to die. We must surrender the identity built on fear, pride, and performance to uncover the one rooted in love, stillness, and God’s truth.
God is not asking us to remember who we’ve imagined ourselves to be. He is gently calling us to let go of what we are not—so we can awaken to what we’ve always been in Him.
"Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross daily and follow me. For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will save it."
— Luke 9:23–24
