I'm reading The Awe of God by John Bevere, and one of the themes that stands out is that God's will doesn't always make sense from a human perspective. In fact, there are times when it won't.
That is part of the tension of being human. We crave certainty. We want answers. We want the path ahead to be logical, predictable, and easy to understand. We want life to fit neatly within the limits of our own reasoning.
But faith often asks something different of us.
If we truly trust God and hold Him in holy reverence, then our calling is not always to follow what we want, but to follow where He leads. Obedience comes before understanding. Sometimes clarity arrives only after we've taken the first step.
I wrestle with this every day. I want things to unfold a certain way. I want circumstances to follow what seems reasonable and sensible. Yet time and time again, I've learned that God's plans are not confined to my understanding.
I learned this early in recovery. Fresh out of rehab, I started attending AA meetings, got a sponsor, and began working the Twelve Steps. More than once I found myself wondering, How is this going to help? Much of the program is rooted in surrender—trusting God's will over your own. When things seemed to move too slowly, or in a direction that didn't appear to lead anywhere worthwhile, worry would creep in. During those moments, I found myself repeating, "Thy will be done," sometimes hundreds of times a day. Looking back, I can see that what felt like delay was often God teaching me trust.
The truth is, if I could fully comprehend every step, there would be little need for faith.
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him, and He will make your paths straight." — Proverbs 3:5-6
Perhaps peace isn't found in making sense of everything. Perhaps peace is found in trusting the One who already does.
Prayer
Father, help me surrender my need to understand everything. Teach me to trust You when the path is unclear and when Your direction doesn't fit my expectations. Give me the courage to follow Your will, even when it doesn't make sense, knowing that Your wisdom is greater than my own. Amen.
